When you step into the vision (a stream of consciousness attempt)

When you step into the vision...

I have begun to step into the vision that I have for doing life
for the first time, ever really
and it is amazing at the turn of every corner

I now live in a community that I love
it is rich, with diverse people who come from all kinds of backgrounds
with live jazz music, a Saturday Farmer's Market near the Potomac
tons of great restaurants blocks away
I can walk to the grocery store
There are old historical buildings all around me
I live in an old home that has been remodeled
There is a community meeting tomorrow night
This place is sort of like "the little town within the big city"
I love that.
It is all somewhat unreal to me
that my dreams are becoming a reality
atleast to a significant degree

Furthermore, I have been exploring a new career track that has me really excited
I have been looking at jobs for the past few months in social entrepreneurship
Jobs that connect community enrichment to innovation and creativity
Jobs that will allow me to think outside the box, create new ideas, and help implement those ideas
I am finding...not a closed door, but a wide open one
I am finding opportunities to connect my passions with reality
and starting to realize that I am more than just interested in this stuff...
i'm actually pretty good at it

this is all slightly overwhelming
but at the same time
i have so say "why am i surprised to find that this is the case?"
why am i surprised to find that my dreams can have fulfillment?
that i was made a certain way for a certain purpose?
and i can actually see that purpose fulfilled?

why it is surprising is because for years i have lived behind a veil
shrouded by the deception of suburban materialist living
additionally shrouded by my own unwillingness to step out and explore the options.
now i find myself fitting well into a world i've desired to enter for most of my life
a world where i can apply my passions for food, culture, design, people, the earth
it is all quite amazing
for the first time ever, i am not a student
i live under my own roof and choose my own path
it isn't dictated to me.
that feels good, it feels real.

at the same time, i am such an idealist
i realize even now as i sit here that i will have to remain a realist in all of this
to keep my expectations in check
and rest not in what is, but in what is to come
to fix my eyes on something greater than what this community can achieve in its present state
that kind of vision will sustain fifty years down the road
a vision where i long for something greater and look ahead to it
and work in the here and now to achieve something tangibly good, not perfect, but good
work i will and press on...
for i have a reason to care.